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People often ask me what I do, sitting alone in my room. These days it’s more to do with my depression, but not always.

This is the book I’ve been reading, rather started reading. On page 45 is mentioned Lugalbanda, ruler of Erech, the second oldest city in Sumer. He was apparently such an important and influential king that there are two extant epics about him and he was deified by later Sumerians, maybe within a century of his death. And yet, we know nothing about his rule, his achievements, his victories, his building projects…nothing.

So I sat back and wondered about him. He must have been a great ruler to be remembered so by his successors, and yet nothing of his deeds has come down to us. What might he have accomplished? What enemies defeated, what temples constructed….How mighty he must have felt and how he must have thought his name and  fame would live in history. And now he’s just a name in a King’s List and the protagonist of some mythic tales. Over four and a half thousand years separate him from me, and yet I could close my eyes and almost feel the burning Mesopotamian sun blaze down on me as I stood by the damp banks of the Tigris and saw this man ride by in all splendour. I could smell the damp air and listen to his horse snort as he passed by. Looking at him, I could see the proud lines, the haughty gaze, the scars, and the confident smile.

And I thought as I gazed upon him, “No one will know of all you did, my friend.”

So, yes; I’m a nerd.


About hbhatnagar

I need to fill this up with much better content than I had populated it with earlier. Why I write a blog maybe? I started blogging in 2009 or thereabouts. I was a newly turned atheist and wanted to converse with others of the same persuasion. We're not exactly a big population group in India! It didn't go very well and I sort of lost interest, posting a few things now and then. I got a lot more regular over the last few months and have been posting almost daily since February '15. There were many reasons why I gradually became more regular in posting, but one way or the other, here I am! So this blog has taken shape, being at different points in time my showcase, my comedy club, my art gallery, my book club, my therapist, my close friend, my innermost self....but always my little corner of the world. You are all welcome to visit and I hope you stay awhile! A few points about me because I don't want to lead anyone on(and trust me this does become an issue more often than I'd care to admit). I'm Indian, the brown-skinned variety; if race, ethnicity or skin colour is an issue, you don't have to get to know me any more than what you see on my blog. I'm 40, so if age is an issue, please be informed accordingly. I was a doctor, an ophthalmic surgeon for 10 years before I quit practice.


6 thoughts on “Nerd.

  1. When I’m D. D. And D. I try the old walk off. A brisk half an hour to and a half an hour back. When i’m out I try and change the air in my room. Just saying…

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    Posted by booguloo | 04/04/2015, 8:52 AM
  2. Reading can be wonderfully distracting and imaginative 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by barrira | 04/04/2015, 1:50 AM
  3. And I feel like am standing in the middle of a field, snow clad mountains in the distance, surrounded by the aroma of apples that grow on trees lining the fields and the sound of the gentle breeze rustling the chinaar leaves… and smoke rising from brick and wood houses burnt down by the army as kids stare in horror… Curfewed Night for you! Nerd enough?

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    Posted by Divya Bhatnagar | 03/04/2015, 11:30 PM

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