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My last case

Did my last surgical procedure today. A small I&C for a chalazion. A friend of mine settled in the UK has asked me to help his cousin, and she had taken a 2 hour journey to see me rather than the dozens of ophthalmologists in her city and in the towns she drove through. I couldn’t not operate on her when she trusts me like this. Well, trusts her cousin’s opinion of me, but still.
It struck me how I would miss the small things. I’ve been focused on the big picture with the job change. Less driving, more days off, stuff like that. Today I thought how I would never scrub for surgery again and I remembered the professor who taught me how to scrub. I thought of how I wouldn’t be giving local blocks and I remembered the first peribulbar block I gave. Putting the mask on, the cold titanium instruments in my hand, the eye exposed under green surgical drapes, gauging the depth of the incision by the feel of how the blade sliced through tissue, innumerable little tricks I learned from seniors or from experience, the smell of the powdered rubber gloves, that itch that grew insistent the moment you got into your scrubs…..it is a world that I had grown so accustomed to. C’est la vie!


About hbhatnagar

I need to fill this up with much better content than I had populated it with earlier. Why I write a blog maybe? I started blogging in 2009 or thereabouts. I was a newly turned atheist and wanted to converse with others of the same persuasion. We're not exactly a big population group in India! It didn't go very well and I sort of lost interest, posting a few things now and then. I got a lot more regular over the last few months and have been posting almost daily since February '15. There were many reasons why I gradually became more regular in posting, but one way or the other, here I am! So this blog has taken shape, being at different points in time my showcase, my comedy club, my art gallery, my book club, my therapist, my close friend, my innermost self....but always my little corner of the world. You are all welcome to visit and I hope you stay awhile! A few points about me because I don't want to lead anyone on(and trust me this does become an issue more often than I'd care to admit). I'm Indian, the brown-skinned variety; if race, ethnicity or skin colour is an issue, you don't have to get to know me any more than what you see on my blog. I'm 40, so if age is an issue, please be informed accordingly. I was a doctor, an ophthalmic surgeon for 10 years before I quit practice.


16 thoughts on “My last case

  1. Good luck on your new adventure!

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by Tessa | 15/05/2015, 8:20 AM
  2. Best of luck on your new adventure!

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by jackijons | 14/05/2015, 2:28 PM
  3. true..reminds me when I quit professional life to go into research…a very small time compared to you though 🙂

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    Posted by Saya | 14/05/2015, 11:45 AM
  4. Why is this your last surgical procedure?


    Posted by ANooP | 14/05/2015, 11:18 AM

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