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On living through.. 

I haven’t been talking about myself on my blog for some time now. I also went back and removed a few hundred posts by making them private. 

I don’t want to be accused of fishing for sympathy and using people; it’s better to post pictures and jokes and random stuff. 

I will be in Basel again next week so my posts and my reading of your blogs will be erratic.

It might be that way a little longer, who knows? I am plagued by my demons again, in good strength. Their knives are out, ask me to bring my blade into play again. Please bear with me if you can, I understand if you won’t. 

Meanwhile, pictures are the best to blog with. 

Take care and stay strong. 


About hbhatnagar

I need to fill this up with much better content than I had populated it with earlier. Why I write a blog maybe? I started blogging in 2009 or thereabouts. I was a newly turned atheist and wanted to converse with others of the same persuasion. We're not exactly a big population group in India! It didn't go very well and I sort of lost interest, posting a few things now and then. I got a lot more regular over the last few months and have been posting almost daily since February '15. I was, and am suffering from depression and things had gotten out of control. I had chronicled it in my posts, but I have removed them. Not because I wanted to hide that facet of my life; if that were the case, I wouldn't be writing this. But I was lucky to come across many, many wonderful people out here who helped me. Even if it was just to post and tell me I wasn't alone. I can't tell you how thankful I am for all of you. I've tried since, to tell my own story as an attempt at catharsis (didn't work) and as a means of telling others that they weren't alone either, not in their depression, nor in their cutting or burning, nor in their thoughts of and attempts at suicide. So this blog has taken shape, being at different points in time my showcase, my comedy club, my art gallery, my book club, my therapist, my close friend, my innermost dark self....but always my little corner of the world. You are all welcome to visit and I hope you stay awhile! A few points about me because I don't want to lead anyone on. I'm Indian, the brown-skinned variety; if race, ethnicity or skin colour is an issue, you don't have to get to know me any more than what you see on my blog. I'm 40, so if age is an issue, please be informed accordingly. I was a doctor, an ophthalmic surgeon for 10 years before I quit practice. I am a depressive, have been for some time, so some things do trigger me for no rhyme or reason; I don't expect anyone to understand that this happens, just maybe accept that it does. If not, I am sorry.


29 thoughts on “On living through.. 

  1. Yes stay strong and enjoy your week away ..

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    Posted by Julie@frogpondfarm | 25/02/2017, 1:05 AM
  2. Be strong! You bog friend and devoted follower care for you, Dr. Hb! I appreciate so much for sharing your stories, photos, words, drawings, wisdom, insights, and your feelings. I have never felt you ask for sympathy.
    Enjoy the trip, look forward to your travel photos and posts.

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    Posted by Amy | 22/02/2017, 4:57 AM
  3. Sending BIG (((HUGS))), Dr. Hb!! My Heart and prayers are with you! ❤

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by AmyRose🌹 | 21/02/2017, 7:27 PM
  4. You stay strong too! Safe travels.

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by Victo Dolore | 21/02/2017, 4:42 PM
  5. Look after yourself Dr H. I hope Basel surprises you in good ways. Catch you on your return or in your photo posts.

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by 10000hoursleft | 21/02/2017, 3:13 PM
  6. Stay strong yourself, Himanshu. Looking forward to your posts.

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by Mick Canning | 21/02/2017, 2:37 PM
  7. Blog is a great way to share the feelings.

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by nirav8837 | 21/02/2017, 12:38 PM
  8. Take care and stay strong.

    Liked by 1 person

    Posted by Hira | 21/02/2017, 12:33 PM
  9. Stay strong, my friend.


    Posted by crow | 21/02/2017, 12:04 PM

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