Quite a break I have taken. And like that friend you’ve been meaning to talk to but haven’t gotten around to calling, it becomes more difficult to get back to posting every day you stay away.
Not that my mental state is helping any. I’m in a downward spiral that I can’t seem to want to get out of. But that’s another story.
For those who know the story about my eyes, it is an ongoing saga, again. This time, I have been diagnosed with Pellucid Marginal Corneal Degeneration. And it’s progressive, so simple treatments like contact lenses won’t work for me. I’m due for a procedure on the 22nd inst. that may or may not slow down the progression. Other options are even less palatable.
This in a year that I had tried to turn my life around. I cut down on drinking and smoking, I started exercising regularly, losing weight, cycling, getting my blood pressure under control…
And now I just feel tired, spent, and all of this seems futile. I know it’s not this disease alone, but it just seems so pointless – just as it did five years ago.