Depression

One more down…

Made it through the day without any overt signs of breakdown. Thank you, all  of you for your words of support and encouragement.

Sinking

I woke up today with an immense sinking feeling. I was bathed in sweat and I felt as if my whole world had been taken away from me. I couldn’t move a muscle, even opening my eyes made me feel worse; I wanted to crawl into myself and die. Everything seems so pointless and so … Continue reading →

My mind as an acrostic

Happy birthday to me…

I do know what it’s all about When every breath becomes a shout A grating, rasping, wordless sound I know the deeps where it is found This leviathan of my sea Who makes his torture known through me He rises up, he gulps for air Lets forth a scream beyond compare He screams so that … Continue reading →

Breaks

I haven’t been posting often, lately. From 2-3 posts a day to a post every 3-4 days, it’s been a slow but consistent descent. Time is the biggest reason. Work has been killing since April, and the last two months were ever worse. Add to that the new part-time freelancing gig I’ve picked up, the … Continue reading →

Examples in foolishness 

Putting my hand in roiling water to put the bubbles in order. 

Six word story 

My picture of incompleteness is complete… 

On living through.. 

I haven’t been talking about myself on my blog for some time now. I also went back and removed a few hundred posts by making them private.  I don’t want to be accused of fishing for sympathy and using people; it’s better to post pictures and jokes and random stuff.  I will be in Basel … Continue reading →

A mouthful of words…

Is it cathartic to bare your soul? Is there an up-tick from sharing the whole? When demons are gathered does it help to slay? Or are angels and demons best kept away?   I struggle for answers and find there are none. I look at the questions and there is just one. Does word-play heal … Continue reading →

With due respect to Armstrong 

When the walls come crashing in…